Background Rant Before the Dreams on September 18 and 19

People like me have been very privileged: We were born with nearly the fullness of the Gospel. We were clearly taught right from wrong (unlike many others). We were told what we needed to avoid, what was evil, and what was subversive.

We gained great witnesses to the gospel. We tried to spread the gospel to others (but failed). We saw miracles. God was good to us beyond measure, and he let us know how truly close we were to the end – a secret withheld to but a few.

Why then have we failed so badly? We denied God and gave ourselves over to the machines. We’ve painted deception upon the inner walls of our mind, rather than glorying in the truth, because we liked it. We threw away our birthright for nothing. We became depraved degenerates, always turning to the darkness and away from that which is good, true, just, upright, and virtuous. How could we have done this? Everything, truly everything was given to us on a silver platter, but instead we settled upon fleshly desires, games, trivialities, and the entertainment of demonic entities. We broke the covenant, and betrayed the trust bestowed upon us.

Oh God, I am sorry. I know I have done wrong. I have wasted my time and defiled the temple given to me. I have gone against thy precepts. Please have mercy on me and us all. Please change us, give us grace in these last moments. Sanctify us, give us new garments that are clean. I want to do better, but I am so weak; lead me and guide me and walk beside me. Remember thy servant, for he waits upon thee and needs thee, even though he is nothing. In the name of our savior, Jesus Christ, Amen.

Dreams 9/18

I dreamt of going to live at a tiny motel that was more like a large hut on a sand bar in the Caribbean. The owner of the sand bar was this perhaps 30-year-old man who was like a life coach and seemed wise. That guy also was paid by my parents to teach me how to do white water rafting – which we did, but the rafting was scary to me and I knew I had to do it but didn’t want to. I then learned about the personal life of this person: his family had murdered top executives in a company, thus stealing their places and gaining the company, which was valued at 400 million dollars. The man had been included in the plot and was subsequently assigned a high up engineer role in the company. Thus, at home he was a vastly wealthy and important person – however he felt extremely bad taking part in his family’s murderous plot. Thus, he was on this island in a sort of self-exile.

I also dreamt that I was on a journey with my family – we had flown to an island in the south west part of the Philippines, and we were driving up to the north of the island to meet my dad’s boss. The boss had a yacht there, and we were to attend a conference onboard. However, we were in a hurry because we were under the understanding that if we missed the yacht he would leave without us. Once on the boat, I noticed we weren’t in that great of a spot in the Philippines, because all of the beaches were black (I like white beaches) – and I knew we were traveling to a new island slightly north east of the center of the country. I saw a scene of this island, and it was very beautiful, with limestone cliffs going into the water and white beaches. While onboard, I knew the three days of darkness were about to occur and was nervous what it would be like to experience them in the ocean.

In my notes, I also wrote “And in the scriptures in cave scene, some of the scriptures were mistranslated.” – so there was a third part of this dream (or maybe a dream from a different day?), but I forgot it!

Interpretation

I think this dream is about our journey towards God:

The Man on the island had largely escape the evil organization his family was a part of (similar to my dreams about people being born into intergenerational Luciferian families, and they have to leave). Moreover, he had progressed on his journey into a sort of wise teacher who even taught people how to do things that they don’t want to do which might be dangerous. However, he still hadn’t escaped the guilt. Thus, he was sort of almost to God but not quite.

Similarly, in the yacht scene, I believe getting on board of the yacht means getting into God’s camp before the three days of darkness deadline happens. So, we had successfully gotten onto the boat, but we still hadn’t reached the paradisical destination yet.

Dreams 9/19

College Republicans

I dreamt I was again at college in the college dormitories, and there was this college republican meeting which my family and I were to attend. However, the event was scheduled for 3am, so my family met up with me to go to the meeting. At this point, I realized that the meeting was at 3am because it was intended to fail – and that the leaders of the college republicans were betraying its cause.

Strangely, before leaving to the meeting, I wasn’t actually sleeping in my dorm, but rather in a large glass office opening into the hallway of the dormitory. The office belonged to the youtuber “destiny”, and when my family came to go to the meeting, he also showed up as if to go with us. Because I felt bad about using the office, strangely, I left this plastic doll inside as a compensatory present, which destiny noticed and remarked upon.

Interpretation

Obviously, this dream was about how the republican leadership has been betraying the American people. Destiny (who is a leftist gamer youtuber who talks about politics on stream) was there because he also represents betrayal (to me), in that he somewhat pretended to be the friend of Nick Fuentes (a good guy) but then turned against him. Particularly, his behavior with Nick was somewhat deceptive in that it seemed like he was holding his silence because he wanted to trick Nick into saying something he might later regret. We must avoid the sorts who act like this – pretending to be your friend so that you give them sensitive information, only to use that information against you.

Regarding how I slept in Destiny’s office and left a doll there – that’s pretty dang creepy. What could this mean?

Oreos

Yes, I know this is a silly one – just because this particularly dream was random, doesn’t mean all my dreams are random however. In the dream, I was on a road trip and kept on stopping at gas stations trying to purchase huge amounts of Oreos, but the purchases didn’t work, delaying me as I tried over and over to buy them (yes, I really like Oreos). I think the Oreos represent sin, and the road trip was to God’s sanctuary, so the dream represented how we can’t get to God’s sanctuary while taking with us sin.