Rant before the Dreams
I’ve been listening to this song: The Polar Express – Seeing is believing
Better version: The Polar Express – Seeing Is Believing (Zac White Trap Remix)
The themes of this song resonate with me: While I can imagine it is easy for you my reader to dismiss my spiritual experiences, it is harder for me to do so because these experiences of mine (some are dreams and some are out of body experiences), are actually things that I have seen and experienced. Seeing is believing.
Nevertheless, like the kid in the movie, I have a hard time differentiating between reality and dreams. And there are huge consequences for me making the wrong classification of truth. Therefore, the kid desperately alternates between pinching and throwing snow at himself to see if he is dreaming and trying to save another person. Likewise, I alternate between worrying that my dreams are false, and assuming they are true and therefore trying to apply the dreams accordingly: to warn the world, restore the gospel, and save people.
The kid thinks he is on the train to the north pole, but isn’t certain this is the case or if Santa even is real because he hasn’t ever seen either the north pole or Santa. I feel like the USA clearly is on the track to war with Iran, Russia, and a civil war, which would be a confirmation of my dreams, but we still haven’t gotten there yet and probably 99% of the evidence that my dreams are true remains only in my head. Lord, I am sorry for my unbelief.
October 20
I dreamt of manning some sort of missionary post in government wishing there were more people who listened to us.
I also dreamt of many people making a journey along a river representing their spiritual journey. Some paths of the river were less direct and were dangerous from rapids. There was also a “wrong path” down the river (the correct path was up-river), which had a point of “no return” where if you passed it, the rapids would be too strong for you to be able to fight back to the starting point. Some people went down the wrong way before turning around, and I remember feeling confused why people took the harder paths in the river.
When I got to the end, there were different busses people took representing different final destinations. The busses were separated into classes, and each class was further bisected by a binary designation. However, one class only had one side of the binary option, not the other side, which confused me. I assume the different busses represent how there are many different kingdoms in heaven, meaning that salvation is more complex than simply heaven or hell.
October 21
I had dreams comparing not believing to being on the bad side of the force (in Star Wars) and being delusional.
I also dreamt of telling my dad that it is useless to try to convert people like Mark Zuckerbeurg because Jews almost never convert to Mormonism. Was this just a random dream?
I dreamt of a seemingly runaway unmanned car which had smashed through several corporate buildings into a basement. I followed the car’s path and found a basement room with a bed. On the bed, the car had (somehow) placed objects representing various sins, including hubris, as well as a knife. This space was weird, including a crib and a tiny robot.
I complained in the dream of how Google had banned my website, and I brought objects which represented evidence of the crimes and sins from Google.
Random Astral Projection (October 21)
In the morning, when I was praying and trying to fall asleep, I accidentally started astral projecting. Since I was interrupted out of the trance by outside noises, I tried deliberately to astral project (thinking perhaps there was something I missed from the first involuntary astral projection) and did so:
My soul appeared in the same room I was sleeping, and I heard a spirit’s voice tell me that we humans are inherently dirty and that only the English language makes us appear to not be dirty – thus, basically telling me to accept being unclean and not try to fight it.
So yeah, as I have said repeatedly, demonic spirits try to deceive you when you enter the spiritual plane. No truth is to be found from astral projection – only deceptive spirits trying to get you to sin and embrace the new age. Trying to astral project this day was a mistake.
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