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I am sorry for the content of this essay, but this is what I dreamt, and I believe my dreams are from God.

sexual abuse in church (explicit)

I dreamt that I was in a meetinghouse for my family’s church (the Mormon church), and I entered this very large, grey, windowless room which seemed to be off limits for the rest of the congregation. This room almost seemed like a back hallway, and it was very tall and wide.

Inside the room I noticed a younger version of my brother (the brother who has left Christianity and become lgbt and joined the dark side so to speak) restrained in this weird device. His body was folded up so that his abdomen was by his face, and his entire body was perfectly restrained, with even a metal mouth piece stuck in his mouth so he couldn’t speak. He also was naked.

I took out the mouth piece and tried to ask him why he was like this. From what I gathered, he had been sexually abused by people, but when I asked who was responsible, he said it was his fault. I left him, reassuring that I would return with a key to free him.

Venturing out into the crowded church halls, somehow I found someone who gave me a key to free him. I also talked to [a person I know] about my startling discovery of my brother. Their response disturbed me: they cruelly laugh about it and said that my brother was such a pervert, as if it was his fault he was abused and this was funny. It was as if this person had already known what had happened to my brother, but hadn’t tried to stop it.

Returning with the key, I started to free my brother and got him to admit that it wasn’t entirely his fault and that people in the church had been involved in this happening. However, I then saw another person enter the room very far away from us, which was possible because this room was very long. I asked my brother if that person had been involved in his sexual abuse, and he said yes. That person then started running towards us carrying a knife, so I just decided to pick up my brother and flee, having not yet fully freed him.

I therefore ended up running all the way out of the church building into the field outside, where I crouched behind a low stone wall. In this scene I somehow had freed more of my brother, and he kept on revealing himself above the wall despite my warnings. I felt he was doing this because he was confused and in a daze.

Importantly, when I finally got my brother to admit that it wasn’t all his fault while in the original grey room, he said that this abuse was orchestrated by “the Utah commission”.

Discussion

Hopefully it should be obvious that this dream was horrifying to me.

This dream reminds me of Sex Prisoners and Evil Mormon Missionaries, in which I also saw that my brother had been captured and was being sexually abused.

I have now had several dreams symbolizing hidden sexual abominations in the Mormon church, and I think this dream adds to those in revealing that there really are weird and creepy things happening in the church outside of the public eye. I believe God reveals these things because he cares about his children, even if nobody else does.

I also think it is really sad that my brother thought that this abuse was his own fault. This goes to show how these workers of iniquity aren’t just abusing people but also are brainwashing and controlling people.

Luke 8:17
17 For nothing is secret, that shall not be made manifest; neither any thing hid, that shall not be known and come abroad.

Luke 12:2-3
2 For there is nothing covered, that shall not be revealed; neither hid, that shall not be known.
3 Therefore whatsoever ye have spoken in darkness shall be heard in the light; and that which ye have spoken in the ear in closets shall be proclaimed upon the housetops.

A Word

While laying in bed, I thought I received this word in my mind from God:

Brigham, this really did happen …  Do not fear, for eventually the whole truth of this matter will be revealed to you, even though it will take you to the edge of your sanity. I am the Lord, and I see all. I have seen the sins of … and your ancestors and your people and of Utah, and I am disappointed and also saddened. My children were not supposed to be used in this way. In the end they will see the error of their ways and we will see who really is God. Your father speaking, adieu.

To add my own commentary, it just seems like all of this is such an incredible tragedy. It makes me want to collapse to the ground, or scream, or just type gibberish.

Later in the night right before the next dream on congress, I also had a very brief dream where I heard this word:

I could look on at the moment, I could be dismayed at the future, but I must go on and on.

congress halting

I had a flash dream where I saw on the news “no bill from house”, which was apparently unprecedented. I associated this in my mind’s eye with an image of Jeb Bush.

I think this dream is about how the normal democratic process will be suspended in the future. This reminds me of Hidden Political and Religious Structures, which also seemed to imply a sudden halting of the normal democratic process, as represented by the conference suddenly becoming partially shut down, thus canceling the speeches of important people who had been scheduled to talk.

I think Jeb Bush was here because he represents the deep state.

Some Math

I then saw a mathematical ratio of “House of good” over “House of bad”.

I also saw that the R^2 of Good = 1.0 and the R^2 of bad might also = 1.0 (I say “might” because I remember this part less clearly).

Thoughts

I think this math represents how God is just, and thus he weighs the good versus the evil of everything. Regarding the R^2 of Good == 1.0 and vice versa for bad, I think this is saying that the correlation of good is 1.0, which I interpret as meaning that the goodness of things is perfectly tied to how God sees them. In other words, God is just and therefore will account for literally every minute good aspect of a thing, as well as every bad element.

Regarding “House of Good” and “House of Bad”, I think this broadly represents how our society or our government is seen by God, with the “House of Good” representing the goodness embodied in our society and vice versa for the “House of Bad”.

The visual appearance of this ratio of good over bad also ties to the visual appearance of the first part of the next dream, which perhaps could be construed as a ratio of desired benefits of actual seen results (or lack thereof).

A choice between Christ or the occult

I dreamt of seeing a snippet from what I thought was a newspaper written in blue and green discussing how there are no benefits to being in the occult. Specifically, the snippet had one line of text about the benefits expected, and then below a horizontal line a separate line which described how there are no actual benefits. Therefore, people were considering leaving the occult after becoming disillusioned from what they had hoped to find in it. In the dream, I then considered how often people came to this conclusion and realized that I had myself concluded this in the past (especially regarding astral projection / witchcraft).

Shortly thereafter I dreamt of asking one of my more distant relatives (who I like) if he would be okay with accepting gifts from the devil, and he said of course not. I then saw a snippet of a large news article or journal article, which had multiple headers and sections as well as dark red portions. Though the text was too small to read, I knew this article was on the topic of deciding whether to accept gifts from the devil.

A Word

While laying in bed, I felt that I received this word from God in my head:

The message of this dream, Brigham, is that people will have to make a decision on the occult – some people will be taking it further than they ever have into the darkness, represented by the dark red, whereas for the silly areas – represented by blue and green – people will realize they were not worth it and will come to Christ. It is time for my people to wake up; but also, the enemy’s warriors are becoming more embittered and hardened than they ever have been in your recent history. The Lord. Goodbye.
Also, you can wake up now.